Thursday, May 10, 2007

randomness

Yay! finally.. i got the password for my blog! aiseh.

Salam.

i has been TOO long since I've write anything. I reckon it has been 2 months.~ heh. Too many things happened in that period of time. But i would not bother you readers with the facts.

just one important thing.

Raja Nazrin dah nak kawen~ *sob* *sob*

okeh.

yep. menjawab soalan tag Ana:

Primary school :

Crossword Puzzle Contest (Standard 2)
Story Telling Competition (Standard 3)
Netball Player for school team (Standard 4 -5)
Pertandingan Hafazan (Standard 5)
Pertandingan Tilawah Al-Quran (Standard 5)

Secondary School :

Handball player for school team.
Pertandingan Dikir Barat (Wakil Zon)
Kejohanan Taekwondo (Wakil Kelab)
Kuiz Sejarah
Kuiz Pengguna PNB
Kuiz Perdagangan (1st Place & Peserta terbaik daerah Manjung)
Kuiz Ekonomi Asas
Kuiz Maal Hijrah
Choral Speaking (kalah ngan sekolah alin. ceiisss)
Pemantun Sekolah.

rasenye itu je lah. heheh.

ok bye.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

abah.

hari ni 21 hb.

cukup 2 tahun.

cukup 2 tahun abah takde.

rindu abah.

i cried myself to sleep.~

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

syyy....

Bang! Bang!

Bang! Bang!



syyyy...

I killed myself last night.

Friday, February 23, 2007

ramblings~

Thanks to Allah for the moon and the stars, and to everything that He gave to me.

its already friday. the last friday of my summer hols~ and next monday, the new sem starts~
the time passed by in a blink of eye, i could just remember myself after the exams worrying about the boredom sickness that would affect me throughout the hols. and now? hehe.. i dont want the hols to end!! there's a mixture of feeling here. One part of me wants to start lectures and classes as soon as possible and one part of me still yearn the time to laze around the house doing nothing. *sigh*

what have i been doing in the past summer hols?
3 months is such a long time. and I cant believe i survived throughout the summer, whilst a lot of my friends went back to Malaysia~

the three months that i would not trade the whole world to. =)

and yes, new sem means lots of assignments, lots of presentations for this year. lots of readings and yes, we're going to observe a school for a few weeks if i'm not mistaken. can't wait for that day!

just realised something. i actually love the fact that i'm gonna be a teacher, teaching at pedalaman site of Malaysia~ i just can't wait. and yes, my mom doesn't really like the idea of the govt sending me to the ulu site. i still need to convince my mom.

Allah knows what best for me. =)

Assalamualaikum,

lots of loving,
Nisa xoxo

Sunday, February 18, 2007

The New Coming Semester.

First Half Year of 2007.

EDUC 390 : Further Topics in Education 1
LING 340 : Linguistics Advanced Seminar
LING 312 : Bilingualism

Second Half Year of 2007

LING 316 : Second Language Teaching
EDUC 391 : Further Topics in Education 2
EDUC 343 : Lit Multicultural Society

Friday, February 16, 2007

14th of February.

14th February 2007. One year. Officially one year.

I survived one whole year in Australia. Who would have thought it?
I still vividly remember the first time I stepped my foot on Australian soil, or perhaps the Sydney International Airport carpeted floor at arrival gate. heh. There was a mixture of feelings that behold inside of me. I've been yearning to get out from Malaysia. To experience something new. To meet new faces, living on my own and yes secretly hopED that I would brush shoulders with Hugh Jackman whilst wandering in the streets of Sydney city. I have thought that the two years of my course in Australia are meant for holiday!~ and ouh.. with part-time role as a student, heh.

I thank God that I've got to spend my two years here with my fellow buddies from 2.5~
When I heard that I'm going to Macquarie Uni with Tasha, Durra, Syada and Shim, I was overwhelmed with joy, knowing that these friends would stand by me and catch me whenever I fall. Me and my comfort zone. heh.

I quickly settled in. My accommodation is luxurious. with private bathroom, who could ask for more? I fell in love with Sydney almost instantly! I love the city, the uni, the Harbour Bridge! the Sydney Opera House! the ferry ride to Manly and oh-so-many many more~

These one year experience told me the many lessons that you could not gain through the educ lectures or the linguistic tutorials~ I've made friends from many types of people. you name it. From a barista to a professional Sydney Opera House crew due to our one similarity and passion. Friends who do not judged me for my religion and my choice of attire.~

And in this one year, I've met with beautiful souls that taught me the beauty of my religion~ the true meaning of friendship that is based to seek Allah's love. Allah has showed me the path by brushing the blurry thoughts that used to cloud my heart and my soul. Allah has opened my heart to his kalam, He granted me his Hidayah and I'm learning to learn more about my religion, realizing that there are so many sins that I have committed, so many things that I've done that hurt others and so many things that I have done following my nafs. Oh Allah, the Most Merciful, please forgive my sins.

Lailahailla anta, glory to You, indeed, I have been one of the wrongdoers.

I am now looking at world with a new perspective~ I've been blessed with the ni'mat of iman and islam. Alhamdulillah. Praises to you Allah. I've began to learn the beauty of Islam that liberates me from the cruelty of world. Islam is indeed the complete religion. I now know what to answer (with full explanations) when one of my mat salleh friends ask me about this piece of cloth that i'm wearing over my head or whenever they'll ask about my religion, the prophet or Allah. I now know what is the purpose of my life. My empty heart has been filled. Filled with Allah's glory. I love it!

There are still ten months to go before I go back to Malaysia~

Thank you Allah for all the wonderful things that you have given to me.

"And if you would count the favours of Allah, never could you be able to count them, Truly! Allah is Oft-forgiving, Most Merciful." An-Nahl:18

Sunday, February 11, 2007

sembuhlah wahai hati =(

susahnye kan nak membuang titik-titik hitam dalam hati ni? walaupun dah berazam untuk tak nak melakukan sesuatu perkare tu, masih terikut juge dgn kebiasaan. walaupun tahu bende tu salah, tapi dalam keadaan x sedar masih buat perkare tu lagi.

knape hati ni masih nak menagih cinta manusia padahal sepatutnye cinta teragung adalah untuk Allah? samelah mcm mulut ni, masih lancar menyanyikan lagu yg melalaikan instead of mengucapkan zikir memuji Allah~

kenape hati ini masih tidak mahu bersyukur dengan ape yang ade, masih merungut-rungut, padahal Allah telah memberikan ape yang terbaik buat kite.

kenape masih mahu mengejar kecantikan luaran padahal sepatutnye cantikkan dan indahkan yang dalam dulu?

kengkadang masih lagi tegar nak buat bende-bende yang bukan Islam... padahal dah tau bende tu salah.

kenkadang hati ini masih berprasangka buruk pada org, padahal dah tau tak elok berburuk sangka.

kenkadang masih mengharap rezeki dari manusia padahal pemberi rezeki itu hanyalah Allah semata-mata..

kenkadang terase diri ini sensorang padahal Allah ade bersame-same kite..

juge kenkadang lupe pada Allah~ lalai dengan dunia.. astaghfirullahalazim~

kenkadang masih lagi cemburu dengan orang lain dengan bende-bende yang tak sepatutnye dicemburui..

Kenape masih lagi nak mengejar kemewahan dunia walaupun tahu semua itu bukanlah bekalan kite untuk menghalang azab siksa neraka?

kengkadang masih lg membuat dosa walaupun perjalanan ke Jannah Allah itu masih lg jauh, dan Allah tahu setiap ape yg kite lakukan, dan api neraka Allah itu membahang panasnye.

sembuhlah wahai hati =`(

Ya Karim, ajarkan aku bernafas keranaMu.