tag.

dah kene tag ni, kene la buat~ heheh.

5 things found in my bag
+ purse
+ handphone
+ camera
+ ipod
+ pen

5 things found in my wallet
+ student card
+ SAM card
+ Daily Telegraph card
+ Insurance card
+ Bank card

5 favorite things in my room
+ personal bathroom
+ tv
+ DVD player
+ bean bag
+ pillows

5 things i’ve always wanted to do
+ open a production house
+ travel to places
+ main layang-layang
+ turn back time and spend more time with my dad
+ have giraffe as a pet

5 things i'm currently into
+ hayfever =P
+ 1920's stuff
+ noel coward (brilliant playwright!)
+ haddock
+ punt!

hayfever.

i was just wondering through my statcounter just now and i saw that there are still people come and visit my blog even though it is rusticating.

terharu~ whoever you are. tehee..

currently, the excitement of blogging like i used to have before is not there anymore. I prefer people to not know what i'm doing, how my life is and the idea of sharing my ideas and opinions with the whole cyber community is not my priority anymore. maybe its because i'm extremely busy, and yet to find time to think and enjoy the present life.

i need to pause my life. or maybe, live in a slow motion mode. or just stop.

p/s: happy birthday Ana!

Looking For Myself

I need to get my life back on track. i need to. but i dont know how. Is my soul missing or wandering away? or am I just sleepwalking?

There are so many things on my mind right now and i just could not seem to sort it out.
Hence, the seldom of writing the blog.

well, part of the reason is because i'm damn lazy and since i dont have an easy access to computers and internet now, blogging is not a free time activity.

The other major part of the reasons is that I just can sort all the thoughts that are playing and dancing in my head, which sometimes they clashed and bumped into each other and gave me headaches! serious headaches!

i'm going mental! i know i am!

and living alone in the house doesnt really help! with every neighbours house is empty and dark!

and right now, i dont know what my problem is, but the last 5 minutes just now, my head is going to explode into pieces (not that i'm a suicide bomber or something). and it all poofed away like it does not real. but it is! i know!!

I'm going crazy!

I'm tired but i dont know what wore me out!

seriously, i dont know. and i dont know what the hell that i dont know.

confusing to read?

try feeling them!

urghhhh!!!!!

randomness

Yay! finally.. i got the password for my blog! aiseh.

Salam.

i has been TOO long since I've write anything. I reckon it has been 2 months.~ heh. Too many things happened in that period of time. But i would not bother you readers with the facts.

just one important thing.

Raja Nazrin dah nak kawen~ *sob* *sob*

okeh.

yep. menjawab soalan tag Ana:

Primary school :

Crossword Puzzle Contest (Standard 2)
Story Telling Competition (Standard 3)
Netball Player for school team (Standard 4 -5)
Pertandingan Hafazan (Standard 5)
Pertandingan Tilawah Al-Quran (Standard 5)

Secondary School :

Handball player for school team.
Pertandingan Dikir Barat (Wakil Zon)
Kejohanan Taekwondo (Wakil Kelab)
Kuiz Sejarah
Kuiz Pengguna PNB
Kuiz Perdagangan (1st Place & Peserta terbaik daerah Manjung)
Kuiz Ekonomi Asas
Kuiz Maal Hijrah
Choral Speaking (kalah ngan sekolah alin. ceiisss)
Pemantun Sekolah.

rasenye itu je lah. heheh.

ok bye.

abah.

hari ni 21 hb.

cukup 2 tahun.

cukup 2 tahun abah takde.

rindu abah.

i cried myself to sleep.~

syyy....

Bang! Bang!

Bang! Bang!



syyyy...

I killed myself last night.

ramblings~

Thanks to Allah for the moon and the stars, and to everything that He gave to me.

its already friday. the last friday of my summer hols~ and next monday, the new sem starts~
the time passed by in a blink of eye, i could just remember myself after the exams worrying about the boredom sickness that would affect me throughout the hols. and now? hehe.. i dont want the hols to end!! there's a mixture of feeling here. One part of me wants to start lectures and classes as soon as possible and one part of me still yearn the time to laze around the house doing nothing. *sigh*

what have i been doing in the past summer hols?
3 months is such a long time. and I cant believe i survived throughout the summer, whilst a lot of my friends went back to Malaysia~

the three months that i would not trade the whole world to. =)

and yes, new sem means lots of assignments, lots of presentations for this year. lots of readings and yes, we're going to observe a school for a few weeks if i'm not mistaken. can't wait for that day!

just realised something. i actually love the fact that i'm gonna be a teacher, teaching at pedalaman site of Malaysia~ i just can't wait. and yes, my mom doesn't really like the idea of the govt sending me to the ulu site. i still need to convince my mom.

Allah knows what best for me. =)

Assalamualaikum,

lots of loving,
Nisa xoxo

The New Coming Semester.

First Half Year of 2007.

EDUC 390 : Further Topics in Education 1
LING 340 : Linguistics Advanced Seminar
LING 312 : Bilingualism

Second Half Year of 2007

LING 316 : Second Language Teaching
EDUC 391 : Further Topics in Education 2
EDUC 343 : Lit Multicultural Society

14th of February.

14th February 2007. One year. Officially one year.

I survived one whole year in Australia. Who would have thought it?
I still vividly remember the first time I stepped my foot on Australian soil, or perhaps the Sydney International Airport carpeted floor at arrival gate. heh. There was a mixture of feelings that behold inside of me. I've been yearning to get out from Malaysia. To experience something new. To meet new faces, living on my own and yes secretly hopED that I would brush shoulders with Hugh Jackman whilst wandering in the streets of Sydney city. I have thought that the two years of my course in Australia are meant for holiday!~ and ouh.. with part-time role as a student, heh.

I thank God that I've got to spend my two years here with my fellow buddies from 2.5~
When I heard that I'm going to Macquarie Uni with Tasha, Durra, Syada and Shim, I was overwhelmed with joy, knowing that these friends would stand by me and catch me whenever I fall. Me and my comfort zone. heh.

I quickly settled in. My accommodation is luxurious. with private bathroom, who could ask for more? I fell in love with Sydney almost instantly! I love the city, the uni, the Harbour Bridge! the Sydney Opera House! the ferry ride to Manly and oh-so-many many more~

These one year experience told me the many lessons that you could not gain through the educ lectures or the linguistic tutorials~ I've made friends from many types of people. you name it. From a barista to a professional Sydney Opera House crew due to our one similarity and passion. Friends who do not judged me for my religion and my choice of attire.~

And in this one year, I've met with beautiful souls that taught me the beauty of my religion~ the true meaning of friendship that is based to seek Allah's love. Allah has showed me the path by brushing the blurry thoughts that used to cloud my heart and my soul. Allah has opened my heart to his kalam, He granted me his Hidayah and I'm learning to learn more about my religion, realizing that there are so many sins that I have committed, so many things that I've done that hurt others and so many things that I have done following my nafs. Oh Allah, the Most Merciful, please forgive my sins.

Lailahailla anta, glory to You, indeed, I have been one of the wrongdoers.

I am now looking at world with a new perspective~ I've been blessed with the ni'mat of iman and islam. Alhamdulillah. Praises to you Allah. I've began to learn the beauty of Islam that liberates me from the cruelty of world. Islam is indeed the complete religion. I now know what to answer (with full explanations) when one of my mat salleh friends ask me about this piece of cloth that i'm wearing over my head or whenever they'll ask about my religion, the prophet or Allah. I now know what is the purpose of my life. My empty heart has been filled. Filled with Allah's glory. I love it!

There are still ten months to go before I go back to Malaysia~

Thank you Allah for all the wonderful things that you have given to me.

"And if you would count the favours of Allah, never could you be able to count them, Truly! Allah is Oft-forgiving, Most Merciful." An-Nahl:18

sembuhlah wahai hati =(

susahnye kan nak membuang titik-titik hitam dalam hati ni? walaupun dah berazam untuk tak nak melakukan sesuatu perkare tu, masih terikut juge dgn kebiasaan. walaupun tahu bende tu salah, tapi dalam keadaan x sedar masih buat perkare tu lagi.

knape hati ni masih nak menagih cinta manusia padahal sepatutnye cinta teragung adalah untuk Allah? samelah mcm mulut ni, masih lancar menyanyikan lagu yg melalaikan instead of mengucapkan zikir memuji Allah~

kenape hati ini masih tidak mahu bersyukur dengan ape yang ade, masih merungut-rungut, padahal Allah telah memberikan ape yang terbaik buat kite.

kenape masih mahu mengejar kecantikan luaran padahal sepatutnye cantikkan dan indahkan yang dalam dulu?

kengkadang masih lagi tegar nak buat bende-bende yang bukan Islam... padahal dah tau bende tu salah.

kenkadang hati ini masih berprasangka buruk pada org, padahal dah tau tak elok berburuk sangka.

kenkadang masih mengharap rezeki dari manusia padahal pemberi rezeki itu hanyalah Allah semata-mata..

kenkadang terase diri ini sensorang padahal Allah ade bersame-same kite..

juge kenkadang lupe pada Allah~ lalai dengan dunia.. astaghfirullahalazim~

kenkadang masih lagi cemburu dengan orang lain dengan bende-bende yang tak sepatutnye dicemburui..

Kenape masih lagi nak mengejar kemewahan dunia walaupun tahu semua itu bukanlah bekalan kite untuk menghalang azab siksa neraka?

kengkadang masih lg membuat dosa walaupun perjalanan ke Jannah Allah itu masih lg jauh, dan Allah tahu setiap ape yg kite lakukan, dan api neraka Allah itu membahang panasnye.

sembuhlah wahai hati =`(

Ya Karim, ajarkan aku bernafas keranaMu.

Al Fatihah (pembukaan)

1. Dengan menyebut name Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.

2. Segala puji bagi Allah, Tuhan semesta alam.

3. Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.

4. Yang menguasai hari pembalasan

5. Hanya kepada Engkau-lah kami menyembah dan hanya kepada Engkau-lah kami memohon pertolongan

6.Tunjukilah kami jalan yang lurus

7. (yaitu) jalan orang-orang yang telah Engkau anugerahkan nikmat kepada mereka; bukan (jalan) mereka yang dimurkai dan bukan (pula jalan) mereka yang sesat.

benarlah kata-kata Allah yang Maha Agung.

Ya Khaliq, ajarkan aku bernafas keranaMu.

News from the Sushine State~

Salam.

By the Name of Allah, The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful.

I'm writing this entry from Brisbannneee!!!!!

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~

although Brisbane ni sangat panas ok! sangat panas!

and i still love Sydney!~ ouhhh.. sydney memang best!~~~

ok.. i'll be touching my foot down at Sydney Central Station at 5.30 am next Monday!~

Fatin.. u dah balik mesia ke belum time tu?

Shakespeares~

Shakespeare.
William Shakespeare.
One of my favourite authors. My most favourite I should say.
I've been reading Shakepeare since I was in primary school. We have a huge collection of Shakespeare in the library at home. I would spend my evening browsing through my mum's collection and try to decipher what is this guy trying to say actually? his words are alien to me. "this is not plain english" i thought to myself. Maybe dad could see my interest and days later i found a set of Shakespeares play all in comic version in one of the shelves that i'd always hang around. I dug in instantly, without any care whats happening around me. tanak makan, tanak kuar main. I was so indulged with Shakespeare~ i am till now.

I was on my halfway reading through "A Midsummer Night's Dream". you see, the last time I read any Shakespeares was in my foundation years, when we were doing Macbeth for our English Studies subject (i love macbeth!) . This play (the midsummer) was my most fav of all! i used to remember lines from the play.. lots of lines actually~ i used to remember every character in the play, every plot and every move and now? i just can tell people who are interested the storyline.. perhaps with a few "kot", "eh" "rasenyela", "nanti i check". *sigh*

Shakespeare was amazingly skilled and at the same time prolific. All of his plays are brilliant! Although I kind of hate "Romeo & Juliet", but it is still a magnificent play~ and historians are debating and discussing wether he's a gay or did he have so many affairs or wether he did drugs? i dont care! i still love his works , and his contribution to the world of English Literature is far beyond concern wether he's gay or not!

Yes, i know my entry has no point, i dunno what i'm writing actually~ I just teringat of the feeling when i was a kid, browsing through the books and found my favourite! Rindu library kat rumah!

my favourite quotes from A Midsummer Nights Dream :

"Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, and therefore is winged Cupid painted blind". Quote (Act I, Scene I)

=)

The Crazy Spots I've Prayed

*Zuhr di Big Cherry Farm*


All the earth is a place of prostration,
Every field and meadow, mountain, park, city, farm plantation.
Every roadside, seaside, hillside, walkway,
Any place clean and green can be a place to pray
When I think of every path, where I've ever trot,
I laugh at all the crazy spots I stopped to worship God.
Remember that long car ride?
Driving all night so far,
Under the summer moon we pulled off to the side,
Reclining in the front seat of the car.

Waking to a fajr bird sound,
And washing in the coin car wash we found.
With the water blaster making wudhu,
You sprayed me and I sprayed you.

We stood so drowsy in the dawn,
Behind the car wash dripping on the lawn.

All the earth is a place of prostration,
Every field and meadow, mountain, park, city, farm plantation.
Every roadside, seaside, hillside, walkway,
Any place clean and green can be a place to pray
When I think of every path, where I've ever trot,
I laugh at all the crazy spots I stopped to worship God.

Saturday shopping day, in a busy mall and bustling through the aisles,
Where everyone's getting in my way.
Each blank zombie we shop and face forty smiles.

Time comes for prayer attack,
Grab a pair of pants or a sweater from the rack.
Find a changing room and latch the door,
Set aside excuses and hit the floor.

As I go back to the mall,
It's easier then to make sense of it all.

All the earth is a place of prostration,
Every field and meadow, mountain, park, city, farm plantation.
Every roadside, seaside, hillside, walkway,
Any place clean and green can be a place to pray
When I think of every path, where I've ever trot,
I laugh at all the crazy spots I stopped to worship God.

And our socks froze to the blanket,
That we spread over the snow,
Your call to prayer bounced off the trees and across the icy meadow.
Crisp and clean cold air, our hearts were so aware,
Our bodies felt the frozen freedom what a very cool place for prayer!

All the earth is a place of prostration,
Every field and meadow, mountain, park, city, farm plantation.
Every roadside, seaside, hillside, walkway,
Any place clean and green can be a place to pray
When I think of every path, where I've ever trot,
I laugh at all the crazy spots I stopped to worship God.

There was a time next to the river;
There was a time in the school hall.
There was that stairwell in that building,
There was that forest in the fall.
The movie house corridor,
The airplane kitchen in the sky.
So many places I'm sure there'll be more
Pieces of earth to testify.

All the earth is a place of prostration,
Every field and meadow, mountain, park, city, farm plantation.
Every roadside, seaside, hillside, walkway,
Any place clean and green can be a place to pray
When I think of every path, where I've ever trot,
I laugh at all the crazy spots I stopped to worship God.
(Dawud Wharnsby Ali)

Dust is my bed

"And Allah grants respite to none when his appointed time (death) comes. And Allah is All-Aware of what you do"
(63:11)

"The angel of death, who is set over you, will take your souls. Then you shall be brought to your Lord"
(32:11)

D E A T H is an enough reminder!

*credits to ukhti ainee*

kami guru malaysia~

Guru baru wajib berkhidmat di pedalaman

GURU-GURU yang baru menamatkan pengajian perguruan dari maktab atau institusi pengajian tinggi akan diwajibkan berkhidmat di kawasan pendalaman dahulu tanpa sebarang pengecualian.

Syarat baru ini telah termaktub di dalam Pelan Induk Pembangunan Pendidikan (PIPP) bagi tahun 2006 hingga 2010 yang akan digunapakai untuk memperkemaskan pelaksanaan program-program pendidikan serta memantapkan lagi proses pembinaan modal insan secara menyeluruh.

Setakat ini, negara mempunyai seramai 190,336 orang guru di sekolah rendah dan 136,598 orang sekolah menengah.

Daripada jumlah ini, 15,444 guru di sekolah rendah dan 2,895 guru sekolah menengah ialah Guru Sandaran Tidak Terlatih (GSTT), guru dalam latihan dan guru sambilan atau sementara.

Sebelum ini, KPM menghadapi kesukaran menempatkan guru-guru terlatih dan berpengalaman, terutamanya bagi mata pelajaran kritikal di kawasan luar bandar dan pedalaman.

Begitu juga bagi memastikan guru terlatih mengikut opsyen ditempatkan di semua sekolah di kawasan luar bandar dan pedalaman bagi memastikan pengajaran dan pembelajaran berjalan dengan lancar dan berkesan.

Sehubungan itu dengan mewajibkan guru-guru yang baru di pendalaman dijangka boleh mengatasi masalah tersebut.

Lebih menarik lagi kementerian telah memutuskan akan menambah baik insentif dan mewujudkan skim asurans khusus kepada guru yang berkhidmat di pedalaman selain menyediakan rumah guru dan kemudahan asas yang sempurna.

: dipetik dr utusan online 20/1/07.

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wahai orang-orang kampung~ nantikan kami =P

cikgu oh cikgu....

peristiwa ini dialami oleh sahabat fillah saye, durra. semalam.

mase tu dekat MC, tgh kluar dr kedai buku Borders, terdengar conversation anak-anak omputih belasan tahun ni.

Girl to Boy : You want to be a teacher?? Why do u wanna be a teacher?? Can't u do something smart??

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teringat peristiwa dahulu, ke pasar malam dengan mak (Cikgu Asmah!), tetibe terjumpe kawan lame mak yang balik kampung time tu.

Makcik : dah besar dah anak dare ni... lepas SPM ke? dapat mane?
Mak saye : ouh, die dapat TESL kat Maktab Bahasa...
Makcik : oohhh jadi cikgu je ke? bagusla.. dari tak jadi ape-ape....

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di suatu majlis ilmu. saye bersembang ngan seorang makcik ni .

makcik : anak makcik ni makcik risau la, belajar tak pandai, result perikse tak bagus... makcik ingat nak suruh die mintak course yg same macam awak ni lah, senang.

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saye pernah terbace di blog seseorang, yang adik die dapat keputusan cemerlang dalam SPM dan bercadang nak amik TESL tapi die marah sbb die kate adik die boleh jadi something yang lebih bagus dari itu.~~


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peristiwa dengan rakan-rakan :

kawan : best la kau jadi cikgu, balik keje cepat, weekend cuti, cuti sekolah lame... senangla hidup ko.. setakat tande2 kertas je.

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mungkin course perguruan ni dipandang remeh oleh org lain.. maklumlah kos kami tak dahsyat~ tapi ingat yer walau ape pun subject yg bakal kami ajar nanti, matematik ke, english ke, kemahiran hidup ke, tolong jangan perlekeh profession perguruan.

dengan izin Allah,
Kami cikgu cikgi ni tetap bersame membangunkan negara
Kami cikgu cikgi ni akan mendidik bakal-bakal pemimpin negara
kami cikgu cikgi ni akan mendidik mujahid-mujahid Islam~

Pengalaman mengajar selame beberapa bulan sebelum fly dulu mengajar saye mengenang jase-jase guru yg pernah bersusah payah mendidik saye di sekolah dulu~.

mmg jadi guru itu memerlukan banyak kesabaran.
mmg jadi guru itu memerlukan banyak pengorbanan.

saye insaf. dan selepas itu saye berazam untuk menjadi seorang guru yang berdedikasi, menyampaikan ilmu untuk mencari redha Allah dan berusaha mendidik generasi-generasi masa hadapan agar menjadi orang yg berguna untuk agama, bangsa dan negara.

=)

Boating with the best of friends~

Assalamualaikum,

First time mendayung sampan, sakitnye badan sampai sekarang. =)
and you're right Sunny, mmg saye terjerit-jerit time nak naik sampan. mcm mane tau ye? =p
dayung sampan kene ade rhytm, kalau tak bot terpusing-pusing.

ade sampan yg bocor. heheh.
berkelah sambil makan bekal yg sedap, dengan company yg best.
dan solat di bawah teduhan pokok-pokok,
mengingatkan betapa kerdilnya diri ini.
berbanding dengan alam ciptaan mu Tuhan~
yet, selalu juga melupakanMu.
ampunkan dosa-dosa kami,
sesungguhnya kau adalah Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Mengasihani.

Naik sampan mengingatkan pada zaman dahulu,
mcm mane orang-orang bergerak dr satu tempat ke satu tempat..
Ya Allah, penatnye nak mendayung~

satu lagi nikmat yg kene bersyukur =)

ade sesape nak pergi boating? saye boleh bawakkan. =)

Assalamualaikum.

Saye mulakan entri kali ini dengan name Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.


Pada satu ketika hari ini, saat saye sedang mengeluh mengenangkan dosa-dosa lalu,
saye terjumpe ayat ini :

" dan dialah yang menerima taubat dari hamba-hambaNya dan memaafkan segala kesalahan dan mengetahui apa yang kamu kerjakan"
(As Syuraa : 25)"

lalu teringat saye akan firmanNya di dalam surah Az-Zumar : 53

"Katakanlah: "Hai hamba-hambaKu yang melampaui batas terhadap diri mereka sendiri, janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah mengampuni dosa-dosa semuanya. Sesungguhnya Dia-lah yang Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang."

dan di dalam surah An-Nahl : 119

"Kemudian, sesungguhnya Tuhanmu (mengampuni) bagi orang-orang yang mengerjakan kesalahan karena kebodohannya, kemudian mereka bertaubat setelah itu, dan memperbaiki (dirinya) sesungguhnya Tuhanmu sesudah itu Maha Pengampun lagi Maha Penyayang."



what could be more precious than when Allah opens up your heart to His holy verses?